Thursday, December 22, 2011

Goodbye Bubby Dog, My Heart and Best Friend


Bubby and Bean will likely be vacant for a few days. We had to say goodbye to our beloved Bubby dog today after 16 years. He went downhill suddenly and unexpectedly, and was put down in his home with Robbie and I holding him. This is not a personal blog, but Bubby was the inspiration behind it. He was my muse, my son, my soulmate. I have experienced a large amount of loss with loved ones, but nothing has affected me like this. I feel like my heart died today alongside him. I was so excited for him to have one last Christmas, and I am heartbroken that he didn't. But I feel blessed in that he was given a few hours to a few weeks to live exactly 8 months ago today. He was also exactly 3 months from his birthday. I guess Bubby had a special connection to the number 22.

I can't even bring myself to turn on my computer (I am typing this on my iPhone), so I can't say for sure when I'll be back to regular posting. Right now it's hard to breathe, much less work. But I wanted to update you all since many of you have followed Bubby the Wonder Dog's story for a long time, and many of you have fallen in love with him as well. Every time I look over at his bed or see one of his toys I fall to my knees in tears. This is a great, great loss. I know one day I will look back on the wonderful memories and adventures we had together. For now, I'm just trying to make it through a 10 minute period without weeping.

Leary ("Bubby"), you were the love of my life, my greatest teacher, my angel. I am lost without you my sweet, sweet boy.




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47 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear this. My prayers are with you.
    I've had my little dog 7 years and I don't know how I'll handle it when he's gone. My heart goes out to you guys.

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear this news. I am a new reader, but I can tell how much Bubby meant (and still means) to you. I have a dog who just turned 17 (she was originally my Grandma's dog) and so far we have been lucky that she's had only minor medical issues. I'm not looking forward to her last days, but I know they must be near...
    Anywho, I wish you well, and I hope your spirits are lifted soon!

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  3. My heart goes out to you. I understand your loss, and hope you feel better soon. Stay strong!

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  4. Melissa, I'm so sorry about your loss. I am glad you have so many wonderful memories with Bubby. May you have lots of time to rest, grieve, and be with people who love you <3

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  5. I am so, so sorry to hear this. I too understand this all too well, and my heart goes out to you <3

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  6. I am so sorry to hear about this. I lost one of my fur babies last year, so I know what you are going through and it was one of, if not the, hardest thing I've had to go through yet. Keep strong and take care of yourself. My heart goes out to you and your family. ♥

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  7. I am so very sorry for your loss. I know first hand and there is nothing to heal but time and good memories.

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  8. How sad! :( I'm sorry for your loss....

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  9. I'm so sorry for your loss melissa.

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  10. NO! no! no! i'm actually crying, & i never even met him. take care dear melissa. so sad, my heart is heavy, but i hope his spirit soars flying throughout the atmosphere, spreading love all around.

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  11. Oh my goodness, I am so so sorry. :( I know exactly how you're feeling and it's a horrible feeling. I know that our little fur babies are just that, our babies, not "pets." I am so so sorry. I will say a prayer for your little guy and one for you. <3

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  12. Melissa, I am so so sorry. No words can comfort you right now, I know. They must seem empty andfall short. But I just want to add my voice to the chorus of sympathies. Like so many other followers here, I have never met you or sweet Leary, but I am so sad for you and so so sorry. Crying with you. And sending hugs.

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  13. As someone who lost her "sister in dog form" years ago, I sympathize fully. I am glad that Bubby could serve as such an inspiration to you, and to those of us who read this blog. He may have passed away, but I'm sure he will always be near to you, and I hope that there's comfort in that.

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  14. I'm just heartbroken for you. I've never met Bubby, but through your words and images I could tell just how much he was loved and how much he brought to your life. Please know his lovely spirit was felt all over the world. Wishing you peace and beautiful memories in time xxx ooo

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  15. i'm so sad for you Melissa :( Bubby touched us all and was a very special soul-- take all the time you need and soak up all the love and hugs you can. All my love, Leigh-Ann and Lola

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  16. I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels to lose a beloved pet and I'm glad that you and robbie were both there at the end to hold him and love him just a little bit longer.

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  17. I am so, so, so sorry for your loss. Bubby was obviously so very, very loved. My heart absolutely breaks for you. Take all the time you need <3

    Katie x

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  18. :::hug::: I'm sad for you and Robbie. It's hard when family members leave us.

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  19. Gentle thoughts to you and Robbie. Take your time.

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  20. Oh no, I am so so sorry to hear that Melissa. Bubby had a wonderful life with you & I'm sure he's watching down on you right now!

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  21. So very very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved Bubby. Through your brand, I sort of felt like I knew him a little bit. I am a dog owner as well and know the special and unique presence they come to be in your life. Sending hugs your way.

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  22. This hurts my heart, but I hope you enjoy the sweet memories with your pup over the holidays.

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  23. I am sobbing reading this. I think all your readers and fans of your art would agree that we loved that dog without even knowing him. He was a symbol of rescue dogs everywhere. Bubby was a common understanding for those of us with pets who are children as much as they'd be if they were human. I feel like I knew him. He was famous all over the world. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling right now. I remember reading how excited you were that he got to have another Chrustmas. I can't think of a dog more loved or cherished by so many especially you and your husband, his mom and dad. I will be thinking of you all.

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  24. love and peace to you, deep breaths xo abbe and luna

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  25. I'm so sad for you! I understand how it feels to lose a beloved pet. Stay strong, and take care of yourself!

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  26. Dear sweet Bubby, I want to cry for you, but I know that won't help. All animals have souls, and clearly Bubby's has touched yours in a profound way. I am sure he will be sorely missed, but immortalised in your work and creations. BIG LOVE Melissa xxx

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  27. So sorry to hear this. It hurts so much to lose a dear pet. I went through this a couple of years ago, and I still miss our dog, Ezra. Best wishes.

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  28. this brings tears to my eyes to hear about poor bubby. i wish he could have had one last christmas with you too. i can't even think of anything else to say other than you are in my thoughts and i know the pain you are going through. i'm here if you want to talk.

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  29. I'm so sorry. I know there's nothing to say that will make you feel better any faster...but we are thinking about you.

    xoxo,
    Amanda, James and Baby

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  30. I am so sad for your loss. Wish I could send you a big cyber-hug. 16 years is a long and happy life in dog years, but it is still very, very sad to see it come to an end.

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  31. My heart goes out to you and your best friend. I live in fear of the day I'll have to say bye to mine. I truly believe there's a huge place in Heaven for our beloved pets, and I'm sure you will see him again.

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  32. I'm new to your blog, but I could tell you had a special bond with your Bubby. I'm deeply saddened to hear about your loss. I too have a soulmate/best friend, my dog Harley. I hope you can find some peace knowing your best friend is running in the fields of heaven and chasing every squirrel he sees.

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  33. Oh Melissa...I am so sorry! There will never be another Bubby, he was a special boy and friend. You will carry your love for him in your heart forever! It's amazing, that special bond we form with our boys. We are fortunate to have them in our lives! Remember all the good times. Big Hug!

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  34. Oh I'm so very sorry!!! My heart just aches for you! I lost my oldest friend of 17 years last January. I still cannot look at a picture of her without crying. Peace be with you.... I'm sure my old Cookie met your Bubby at the Rainbow Bridge.

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  35. I am so sorry for your loss. I do not know what I would do if I lost my Chloe. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  36. In my entire life, I never met a dog owner as amazing as you or saw a bond between a human and animal like the one you and Bubby had, and will continue to have. I cannot even fathom your heartbreak right now. I know I've said this a million time over the past few days, but I am here whenever you need me. This is a huge loss to everyone who ever met that magical, magical dog.

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  37. I am so, so sorry for your loss. my first family dog Roxy just died on Boxing Day evening.
    I can't even describe how utterly heart broken I am, and can only imagine that you must be going through the same thing. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your "Bubby".

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  38. Thank you all again, so much. I can't tell you what it means to us to read these comments right now.

    Love,
    Melissa

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  39. I lost a pet two years ago and it was so hard. Now I think of Sadie as the greatest cat ever and remember her as a good friend and slightly unpredictable companion. Her death was sudden and it was hard to not feel like she'd been taken too early. Now I think of the fact that we adopted her and gave her a good home for all of her remaining years. It's not the same around our house, but we think of the good times now. Rest assured, there are many, many people who understand the greatness of your loss. I wish you many laughs and happy memories between the tears!

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  40. Tsuki aka LittleGrayFoxDecember 29, 2011 12:15 PM

    oh dear I am so sorry for your loss. I know how much love a furry face can give and it truly is so hard to lose a loved one. Hugs to you during this difficult time. I'm so glad you got more time than was given..he was such a lucky pooch to be so loved

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  41. I can't imagine the pain you must be going through right now! Hope you are doing better now!

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  42. Hi Melissa, when I had to say goodbye to my little dog Cesar after 14 years last Friday I thought of your post again and I just wanted to say that there were no better words than yours to describe the feelings you have in this situation... Thank you again for that, hope, you are doing good!! Linda xx

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  43. Hi Melissa, when I had to say goodbye to my little dog Cesar after 14 years last Friday I thought of your post again and I just wanted to say that there were no better words than yours to describe the feelings you have in this situation... Thank you again for that, hope, you are doing good!! Linda xx

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