Bubby and Bean will likely be vacant for a few days. We had to say goodbye to our beloved Bubby dog today after 16 years. He went downhill suddenly and unexpectedly, and was put down in his home with Robbie and I holding him. This is not a personal blog, but Bubby was the inspiration behind it. He was my muse, my son, my soulmate. I have experienced a large amount of loss with loved ones, but nothing has affected me like this. I feel like my heart died today alongside him. I was so excited for him to have one last Christmas, and I am heartbroken that he didn't. But I feel blessed in that he was given a few hours to a few weeks to live exactly 8 months ago today. He was also exactly 3 months from his birthday. I guess Bubby had a special connection to the number 22.
I can't even bring myself to turn on my computer (I am typing this on my iPhone), so I can't say for sure when I'll be back to regular posting. Right now it's hard to breathe, much less work. But I wanted to update you all since many of you have followed Bubby the Wonder Dog's story for a long time, and many of you have fallen in love with him as well. Every time I look over at his bed or see one of his toys I fall to my knees in tears. This is a great, great loss. I know one day I will look back on the wonderful memories and adventures we had together. For now, I'm just trying to make it through a 10 minute period without weeping.
Leary ("Bubby"), you were the love of my life, my greatest teacher, my angel. I am lost without you my sweet, sweet boy.